I did it.

I can still remember the time when I begged for love. I lost my colors. I settled for the "maybe", the "I'll see if I can" and the "I'm tired". I endured the pain of every no, and over time I started to believe that maybe, just maybe, that's what I deserve. That I should just be grateful for the rare "yes" and just sit in the corner waiting.

It took some time, but when I finally realized that I'm slowly turning into this broken soul I always feared to be, I tried my best to get up and walk away. Step by step, I dragged my feet, and that's when I learned that one of the most difficult things to do in life is to walk away from things that you've always wanted. But I did it.

I did it because every day seemed like it's raining and I wanted to see the sun again. I did it for the days when I would laugh so hard my stomach would hurt. I did it because I wanted to believe that despite the messed up person that I am, despite all the scars and the holes in my chest, I deserve another shot at happiness.

I know it took a while, but I couldn't be prouder.

I did it.

Be Careful 🧐

Be careful about having relationships with people with no emotional intelligence. They will never understand you, they will personalize everything,and you will never be seen and heard. 

Be careful about having relationships with people who can't regulate their emotions you will always be at the mercy of their rages, and bad moods. 

Be careful about having relationships with people with no self awareness, they have no idea how their behavior affects the people around them, so it's a matter of time before you get hurt. 

Be careful about having relationships with people without empathy, they will never see or care about how you feel. 

If no one has ever told you, I am telling you now.

Look for people in your life with emotional intelligence, self awareness, empathy and the ability to regulate their emotions or you will be at the mercy of their dysfunction and pay the price for their immaturity and lack of growth.

Would my?

 

I am taking a new manifestation course and I wanted to share this with you.

1. Would my higher self approve of the people I allow in my life? 

2. Would my higher self like how I treat myself currently?

3. Would my higher self be proud of the decisions I am making today?

4. What would my higher self tell me If I told them I was struggling? What advice can you hear she is telling you?

Commitment 🫶

 

Sometimes I wonder if this generation understands what it truly means to remain committed to each other.

Commitment is bringing your ass home and remaining loyal to your partner even when you both don't see eye to eye on certain days. 

Commitment is continuing to work hard on your relationship even when the romantic mood has already left. 

Commitment is truly being a ride & die for your partner when tough times almost get the best of them.

Commitment is being your partner's sunlight during their darkest hours. 

Commitment is reassuring your partner that they will be ok even when the doctor’s diagnosis doesn't look good.

Commitment is walking by your partner's side through a storm the same way you do when the sun is out. 

Commitment is waiting on your partner hand and foot when they cant do for themselves. 

Commitment is being the calm one in an emergency when you see your partner freaking out.

Commitment is never giving up on your relationship, and making a real effort to see your partner smile.

Commitment is overcoming everything together, and loving each other until your last breath.