To My Nina-Girl ...

• Travel light through life. Keep only what you need.
• It’s okay to cry when you’re hurt. It’s also okay to smash (some) things; but, wash your face, clean your mess, and get up off the floor when you’re done. You don’t belong down there.
• If you’re going to curse, be clever. If you’re going to curse in public, know your audience.
• Seek out the people and places that resonate with your soul.
• Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.
• 5-second rule. It’s just dirt. There are worse things in a fast food cheeseburger.
• You are a woman, you do not need a man!
• Happiness is not a permanent state. Wholeness is. Don’t confuse these.
• Never walk through an alley alone.
• Be less sugar, more spice, and only as nice as you’re able to without compromising yourself.
• Can’t is a cop-out.
• Hold your heroes to a high standard. Be your own hero.
• If you can’t smile with your eyes, don’t smile. Insincerity is nothing to aspire to.
• Never lie to yourself.
• Your body, your rules.
• If you have an opinion, you better know why.
• Practice your passions.
• Ask for what you want. The worst thing they can say is no.
• Wish on stars and dandelions, then get to work to make them happen.
• Stay as sweet as you are.
• Fall in love often. Particularly with ideas, art, music, literature, food and far-off places.
• Fall hard and forever in love with nothing but yourself.
• Say Please, Thank You, and Pardon Me, whenever the situation warrants it.
• Reserve “I’m sorry” for when you truly are.
• Naps are for grown-ups, too.
• Question everything, except your own intuition.
• You have enough. You are enough.
• You are amazing! Don't let anyone ever make you feel you are not. If someone does....walk away. You deserve better.
• No matter where you are, you can always come home.
• Be happy and remember your roots, family is EVERYTHING.
• Say what you mean and mean what you say.
• No one will ever love you more than I do.
• Be kind; treat others how you would like them to treat you.
• If in doubt, remember whose daughter you are and straighten your crown because this too shall pass. 


This is just a little taste of what my blogs will be about, don't like it? That's okay!
Think I am complaining? Walk a day in my shoes, I dare you!
Interested in reading more? catch me on blogger.

Mind Over Matter

Have you ever had such an intense dream that you woke up infuriated with your spouse or friend? Even though you clearly knew it was a dream.. you still woke up mad or upset, and though you didn't think you were.. you held it against him or her for the entire day?   Just think!    The majority of your day you spent upset or dwelling over something that never actually happened, but yet you let it affect your mind, your mood and possibly others around you. Our minds are so powerful that we can make ourselves believe in anything we want too.. it is how we reach our goals, it is how we talk ourselves into situations or even out of them and even sometimes, it is also how we weaken our mental health. We let our minds become weak sometimes because of emotions, and after you let your mind grow weak its like the old saying "you either use or loose it". There are days where you feel unstoppable and maybe even checked off a whole "to do list" around the house or at work, and than there is days were you just don't feel as motivated, you don't care about that list even though you know it needs to be done and you push it off another day in hopes that you will conquer it tomorrow! Only you can decide that next day that YOU are going to do it, so tell yourself something positive, and think about yourself for a minute, think about everything you did when you checked off that "to do list" and even more that one time.. know and remember what your capable of, and use it as motivation. One of my favorite sayings that helps me get motivated is "One day at a time" It is really important sometimes to slow your mind down, and just focus on one thing at a time even with distraction, we have to practice bringing our minds back to the present situation. 

One thing I have always struggled with is opening up to people, and or saying how I feel in the present moment, I could think of a hundred times that if I would have just said what I felt.. I would not have let it eat me up inside and ruin a few of my days. It is actually funny because I am quite a vocal person, I am very loud and outgoing, and at times say too much.. because that's who I am. But yet when it is something that emotionally interrupts my mind  I just couldn't find any words to say, or have the courage to talk about it. Why do we do that? Usually I would go home and dwell and overthink the worst case scenario, meanwhile this other person has no idea that I am feeling this way. This was and still is a weakness of mine and is something I work on every day, I try not to let things shut me down like they used too because that's not who I am or who I want to be. Mind over Matter is so very important to work on every day for your well being. Emotions are everywhere, every person you pass, everyone you surround yourself with. Your surrounding tribe is the most important, be around people who bring out the best in you, that don't judge or misguide you. because just like a lucid dream you can not let that control your character, your narrative or your environment, your story.. your dream! We are officially half way thru the year.. and with a new year approaching, how many of you can honestly say that you kept your "New Year, New Me", basic resolution? I didn't.. But its not too late to defeat your resolution, and get back up and finish off the year strong! Trust your gut and think about the things you are interested in changing, and goals you want to reach and set them now. Do the best you can do, adulting is hard sometimes but just remember paying your bills doesn't make you and adult nor does eating cereal for dinner sometimes mean that you are not an adult.. Just do you, write your own rules because "this too shall pass".

I am going to try to blog like Jenna Hamilton...

INTRO 

Today I have decided to start a blog..

 I have always really enjoyed writing even though my grammar is not the best! I think I am going to not only use this blog to do some serious venting, but also use it as a way to look back on all the mornings and nights I thought were crazy thinking

 "How can I do this?"

"How am I functioning today?"

or "Did I even sleep last night?"...

Unless your a Mom of twins you honestly don't know what its like to have two infants and the same time. No, I don't care that you have Irish twins and no it is not at all remotely the same! Not only am I a mother of twins I have a soon to be 4 year old.. Who is a walking, talking clone of me with ambition, stubbornness, temper and bossy as hell! Yes, all those wonderful traits came from me... Karma, my mom said it would one day come and bite me in the ass... and it sure is day by day. I am 25 and at one of these awkward stages were you instead push away from your mother you honestly need her more than ever, You sit and wonder how she did it all, how me and my two siblings ever survived and when did she ever have time for herself? When I think about it she never did. I never saw my mom take a break, a vacation or even go out with friends much. We constantly followed her into every room..

 "Mom, where are you going?"

 "Mom, what are you doing?"

or "Mom, why are you sitting in here alone?"...

I  know why now... cause even that five minutes of peace and quiet with no questions no temper tantrums is honestly the only five minutes a mother gets a day. My favorite time of the day is when everyone in my house is finally sleeping and my second shift of duties start,  I pack my husbands lunch which always includes 2 sandwiches, a fruit, a snack bar, a dessert, chips and of course two Monster drinks. Anthony's lunch for preschool, honestly never changes! if he could eat a lunchable for breakfast lunch and dinner he would... I make the twins 8 bottles shake them, label them and pack them up for a full day of daycare. After, I usually clean the kitchen wipe down the counters put everything in its "place" pick up the living room... my husbands socks next to the recliner, Anthony scraps and toys and everything that kept the twins entertained for that night. I sit down finally at usually 12:05 AM on the dot and recline the chair and just sit there... Nikki, relax and breathe.. I say to myself...no TV, no phone maybe shed a couple tears and say to myself, This too shall pass. After usually about 10 minutes I leap up before I get too comfortable and creep down the hall to bed and say a little prayer that I get it least an hour of sleep before Niko and Nina wake up between 1-2 AM for a feeding. (really I pray they sleep thru the night) but that's never the case...

This is just a little taste of what my blogs will be about, don't like it? Thats okay!

Think I am complaining? Walk a day in my shoes, I dare you!

Interested in reading more? catch me on blogger.