INTRO
Today I have decided to start a blog..
I have always really enjoyed writing even though my grammar is not the best! I think I am going to not only use this blog to do some serious venting, but also use it as a way to look back on all the mornings and nights I thought were crazy thinking
"How can I do this?"
"How am I functioning today?"
or "Did I even sleep last night?"...
Unless your a Mom of twins you honestly don't know what its like to have two infants and the same time. No, I don't care that you have Irish twins and no it is not at all remotely the same! Not only am I a mother of twins I have a soon to be 4 year old.. Who is a walking, talking clone of me with ambition, stubbornness, temper and bossy as hell! Yes, all those wonderful traits came from me... Karma, my mom said it would one day come and bite me in the ass... and it sure is day by day. I am 25 and at one of these awkward stages were you instead push away from your mother you honestly need her more than ever, You sit and wonder how she did it all, how me and my two siblings ever survived and when did she ever have time for herself? When I think about it she never did. I never saw my mom take a break, a vacation or even go out with friends much. We constantly followed her into every room..
"Mom, where are you going?"
"Mom, what are you doing?"
or "Mom, why are you sitting in here alone?"...
I know why now... cause even that five minutes of peace and quiet with no questions no temper tantrums is honestly the only five minutes a mother gets a day. My favorite time of the day is when everyone in my house is finally sleeping and my second shift of duties start, I pack my husbands lunch which always includes 2 sandwiches, a fruit, a snack bar, a dessert, chips and of course two Monster drinks. Anthony's lunch for preschool, honestly never changes! if he could eat a lunchable for breakfast lunch and dinner he would... I make the twins 8 bottles shake them, label them and pack them up for a full day of daycare. After, I usually clean the kitchen wipe down the counters put everything in its "place" pick up the living room... my husbands socks next to the recliner, Anthony scraps and toys and everything that kept the twins entertained for that night. I sit down finally at usually 12:05 AM on the dot and recline the chair and just sit there... Nikki, relax and breathe.. I say to myself...no TV, no phone maybe shed a couple tears and say to myself, This too shall pass. After usually about 10 minutes I leap up before I get too comfortable and creep down the hall to bed and say a little prayer that I get it least an hour of sleep before Niko and Nina wake up between 1-2 AM for a feeding. (really I pray they sleep thru the night) but that's never the case...
This is just a little taste of what my blogs will be about, don't like it? Thats okay!
Think I am complaining? Walk a day in my shoes, I dare you!
Interested in reading more? catch me on blogger.
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