This is it.

 Yes,

You are strong enough to survive this.

I know it seems like your world is over and maybe you can’t find the light right now, but hang in there. 

I know your soul is weary and you feel like you can’t keep going, but don’t stop.

Your happiness may seem so far away, but it’s not as far as you might think.

Yes, the nights can be long and you don’t have any answers, but you don’t have to.

Breathe.

Take a moment and remember what all you’ve survived before now.

You’ve been through the fire and always found your way..your courage has been forged in the fire that tried to take you down.

Remember that- you’re a warrior who will continue to rise again.

It’s time to find your magic again and listen to your heart.

It knows the way, but you’ve gotten so weary that you’ve lost the path.

If you’ve lost faith in yourself and your strength is waning, know that you’re not alone.

You’re loved, you’re enough and I believe in you.

It’s always darkest before dawn and this is your time to start again.

Every end is a new beginning and your next chapter will be magical..

You just have to start believing in you like I do.

Like all the people in your life do.

I know you’re reading this and wondering how you’ll make it through this, but I’m telling you..

You got this.

You are meant for more than to simply fizzle out like a dampened flicker of light.

You’re a wildfire capable of setting your soul and life on fire again.

Take my hand and let’s start climbing out of the darkness, day by day.

I know you’ve been looking for a sign, something to believe in..

Well, this is it.

Today is your wake up call and this is where you start again- you’re strong enough and you’re worth it.

It won’t be easy and it won’t be fast, but it will change your life if you’re ready.

These words were meant for you.

Are you ready to start again?

Believe, darlin..in you, your destiny and most of all, in that you are meant for more.

Beginning today..get up, step up and start remembering the magic and dreams you lost along the way.

Anything’s possible if you just believe..

And I believe in you.❤️

The Path. 🥾

 She had finally started to realize that every happily ever after wasn’t the same for everyone.

She was sure that some fairy tales involved glass slippers and white picket fences, but that was never her path.

She was a strong willed, feisty and headstrong woman that didn’t just accept whatever life gave her..

No, she wasn’t okay with anything less than what she knew she deserved.

She was worth the best and would spare nothing to get what she wanted.

It might mean strapping on some boots, putting in some work and fighting for what she wanted, but if that’s what it took, so be it, she was willing to pay the price for her dreams.

Her path had never been an easy one, and she thrived under the pressure of challenges.

She saw the magical stories of true love, romance and Prince Charming and shook her head.

Who did that ever happen to, anyways?

She wasn’t holding out for a hero, she was the heroine of her own story..

She made her own magic and created her own opportunities and no man would change anything about who she was.

She didn’t need to be saved, fixed or changed..she loved her flaws and imperfections, right down to all of her jagged edges and curvy beauty.

No, she was used to fighting for what she wanted- nothing she wanted ever came easy, and she knew love would be no exception.

She didn’t seek the spotlight, because she shined from within..her scars told the story of her ability to overcome every fire that had tried to bring her down

And she was still standing strong, ready for the next disaster or terrible day.

She didn’t expect life to be all rainbows and sunshine but welcomed the beautiful parts of life with open arms when it showed up.

She would never find her worth in another person- she would find it within herself and then the person worthy of her love would show up when the time was right.

So, she continued to do what warriors do..

She fought-

For her life, for her dreams, and even for love, if necessary.

Forget the stories about glass slippers and fairy tale endings..

Her story was one of a kind.

She was both the beauty and the beast..

And she wouldn’t have it any other way.

Loss on You.

 She gave him everything, even more than she thought she could give..

And it still didn’t matter.

She sacrificed and gave her all for the sake of their relationship and him..

But it wasn’t enough.

She put him and his needs first, always being there when he needed her, without question.

But that didn’t change what happened.

As the night closed in around her, all she could feel was the overwhelming heaviness of her heart breaking.

She had broken her own heart trying to hold onto a man that just didn’t care about her the way she did about him.

All she did, all she was, all she gave didn’t matter to him in the end.

He left without even looking back, leaving her with questions she knew she might never know the answer to.

She wondered why as the pain turned over in her mind and heart, over and over..

Where had she failed and what was wrong with her?

She almost couldn’t breathe as the weight of the heartache felt almost suffocating.

Tears streaming down her face, she stood up to look in the mirror.

Wiping her face, she stared at the tearstained face of a woman who just wanted to be loved.

She was tired of being let down and love shattering her heart into countless pieces.

She grimaced at the reflection she saw.

This is not where she had thought she would be so many years ago as a younger woman with high hopes and a bright future.

Heartache and dead end love had nearly torn her down into nothing..

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

She couldn’t do this anymore.

She deserved better than to spend all these nights crying her heart out over men that didn’t really care about her.

She had a choice to make- either continue to make the same mistakes over and over, ending up in this same place...

Or choose a different path.

Her heart was tired and her soul was weary.

She was done letting life and love cast her aside because she continued to settle.

She decided to stop chasing love at all costs and to do the things that made her happy.

Living for love had done nothing but cause her pain and sadness.

It would be a different road than she had been on, but she had to change the way she was living.

She wasn’t happy and continuing to do the things and love the men that made her upset wasn’t going to make her happy.

She had to ask herself the hard questions and begin to try to understand what made her soul happy.

She honestly didn’t know anymore, it had been so long since she hadn’t been trying to please someone else.

She hadn’t ever really tried to find herself because she had always been too busy trying to make some man happy.

That was changing, starting now.

Maybe she didn’t know where she was going or how to get there, but she’d figure it out..

But for the first time in her life, she was living for herself..

It would be hard and she didn’t really know how, but she’d figure it out along the way.

Maybe she’d get lost and lose her way, but at least she was doing it her way.

She had finally realized that she would always be more than enough..

Today, tomorrow and forever.

Her life, her way, her rules.

Finally free to seek what made her soul happy.

To my past ...🥂

 Even as you were hurting me, I was finding all the reasons why it was okay.

The things you said and the way you treated me shattered my heart in countless pieces as you wreaked emotional havoc on me.

The worst part of it wasn’t that you did it or that I allowed it, but that I rationalized your anger and emotional abuse.

My friends would beg me to leave and do everything they could to help free me from our toxic relationship.

But I was so lost in survival mode that I couldn’t exist in any place other than where I currently was, where felt safe..and leaving it all behind..

Well, that scared me.

What if I wasn’t strong enough, what if you came after me..those were some of the questions that made my heart race in fear.

But truthfully, you don’t know how strong you truly are until being strong is the only option you have..

And on that last morning, you finally pushed me so far that I knew I could never forgive you. 

Your rage consumed you and somehow, you tried to make me believe it was my fault.

That was the moment the clouds broke and something snapped in me.

If I didn’t escape this toxicity, it would take everything from me, possibly even  the breaths from my lungs.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and decided..no more.

I waited for the fear and uncertainty to set in ..but it never did.

I took such good care of you.. I knew I gave my all and tried again and again.. the thought of leaving you would cause my heart to hurt like it had so many times in the past..

But the pain never came ..

I was finally numb- you had pushed me to the point where I just didn’t care anymore.

I sat staring quietly at you as your eyes flashed red with the familiar ire of your dreadful rage.

Silently and deliberately , I looked out that bathroom window slowly and wistfully shook my head at your temporarily subsiding debacle..

I knew I wouldn’t, but that’s all I could think of in those tense moments as I tried to maintain my composure.

The day that changed my life, I closed the door to my dead end past and opened my heart and soul to new possibilities.

I still had a long hard road ahead, but finally, I was something I hadn’t been in a long time.

Free...

You broke my heart, you betrayed me.

All the things I loss on you. 

I’ll never forgive you.

To my past.. 🥂