Believe one day..

 Maybe right now you have to realize that your journey is not about loving another person

Maybe right now, you have to love yourself first and feel the inner peace of being alone

Maybe right now, you need to figure yourself out and ask yourself why you're rushing the things that can wait

Maybe this is the time to learn how to sleep at night without expecting someone to say goodnight and waking up tomorrow with smile and forgiveness

In that way you will value your personal space and you can give yourself the permission to do your passion and achieve your dreams without worrying about time. 

Maybe right now you are being taught that you can take care of your soul and you don't need anyone else to do it for you.

Maybe today marks the beginning of the new version of you, someone that will not rent some space in other person's heart. Because darling, I believe that you can be your own home. A home that will satisfy all your needs and wants. A home that will never get abandoned. And I hope someday you will learn to believe it..

Love conquers all?

 The right one will love you. 

Finding someone who genuinely cares about you and your well-being is extremely hard to find this day and age.

Time and time again I hear about someone walking away because things became "too hard"

You deserve someone who fights for you when things get difficult, and they aren't gonna be like "you know what? it's over" and throw everything away.

If that person really values you, there's no such thing as you being "too complicated".

 There's no such thing as you being "too crazy". 

There's no such thing as you being "too much". 

The right person will love you unconditionally and they will be willing to make it work, despite what the obstacle is and whatever the problem may be, because losing you is never an option.

No argument is going to push them away far enough, no fight is going to cause them to lose feelings, and no disagreement is going to make them drift away from you.

No matter how bad things get, they would never let it outweigh how much he or she cares about you. 

No matter how dysfunctional things become, they would never let it take away the value of your relationship with them. 

Take my advice and remember. A person who truly values you, would never put themselves in a position to lose you. 

Dear Me,

 Dear me,

I'm sorry that you tried so desperately to fix others, when your own hands were shaking. I'm sorry that I didn't give you enough time to heal, that I let you seal the wounds of everyone else whilst your own were bleeding. I'm sorry that there were days when smiling hurt but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you. 

I'm sorry that you gave all of your time and effort to people that didn't give the same amount back. 

I'm sorry that there were nights when you cried yourself to sleep and no one bothered to understand why. 

And I am so sorry that I did not love you, like you deserved to be loved.

Waiting for that someone..

 Find someone who's Real. 

Find someone who wants to authentically learn who you are as a person. 

Find someone who lets you know from the very beginning, if they have genuine intentions. 

Find someone who isnt just a " lover ", but a friend, a partner, a mentor, someone who you can come to when life is so hard, and you feel like giving up and they are there to pick you back up on your feet. 

Find someone who respects you and your children.  

Find someone who shows you the definition of effort. 

Find someone who takes a day off work when you're sick to make sure you're taken care of. 

Find someone who motivates you to do better in life because relationships are more than just falling in love. It's about inspiring each other to become better versions of yourselves day in and day out. 

Find someone who is patient with you and are guided by morals and reasoning. 

Find someone not only to love, but someone to grow with, learn from and to share new experiences with. 

Find someone who's willing to understand you. 

Find someone who admits when they are wrong. 

Find someone who understands it's not about giving you the world, it's about making you feel like you're the only one in it. 

Loving the wrong person

So many people are suffering in relationships today because they refuse to let go of the person they are currently in a relationship with.

 They know the relationship isn't working, but they refuse to leave because they feel they might be able to change the person.

 They believe they are willing to go to any length to ensure that the person continues to "love them".

 The hardest aspect is that they are doing everything in the hopes that the person would change, even when the person has no intention of changing in the first place. 

 If you're in a relationship right now where the person is causing you more grief than happiness, then it's time to let them go. 

 Accepting that things aren't working is the best approach to avoid getting hurt more in this type of relationship. 

 It's crucial to admit to yourself that the relationship is in disrepair.

 I see so many people that are suffering in their current relationships because they refuse to face the reality of its true nature.

 If your current relationship isn't working, do me a favor and don't force it, the more you force it, the more you will end up hurting yourself in the long run. 

 Nobody can take your happiness away if you don't want it taken away. Your happiness is in your hands; your happiness is dependent on you.

 If you don't want others to continue to mistreat you. you have the power to stop them. 

Take my advice and have the courage to leave the table when respect is no longer being served.

Passing Thru🙃

Nobody has the slightest clue about the war she is going through.

They don't know about the countless battles she fights inside her head with every day that passes. 

They don't know about her pillow wiping away her tears when nobody else would. 

She's emotionally exhausted to the point where she feels nearly broken. 

Yet she is the one who always tries the hardest to make others happy because she knows what it's like to feel completely worthless.

So she does everything in her power to make sure nobody else feels the same way. 

No matter how she is treated or what life decides to throw at her, she still manages to keep a smile on her face for everyone around her. 

And she shares her good heart and kindness with anyone in need.

Even though in spite of all this .... she knows she's the one who truly needs it the most.

Worth It 🩷

The truth is that growing up is heartbreaking. You always find yourself running- from one place to another; and no matter where you go, there's always an urge in the back of your mind to suddenly pack your bags and leave without giving anyone a notice. I haven't prayed in my life, not really but for once I would like this anxiety, this trauma, this helplessness to take a backseat. For once, I would like to know what life is like without fears. It is impossible, I know that. It's not easy to forget something that has become a part of you. Still, someday I hope to go alone on a long drive and stop in a field of wildflowers. I hope I smell the earth, see the blue sky, watch little butterflies sitting on plants and there's no rush to go back. I have never known a home that had enough space to fit all of me. I sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart that some day, I will be able to build a home for myself and fill it with all the things I love. And when I break apart, I have arms around me to hold me and pat my back. I won't live forever. One day, I will vanish and nobody will say my name again and think of me. But right now, I am here. Right now, I am living and I wish to live a little more. For myself. There's a vast orange sky over me, filled with my hopes and dreams. And I hope I get to know what it's like to live right under it.

If the day I am praying for ever arrives, 

all this wait will be worth it.